I never dreamed I'd be away for so long… I guess that fight I had with a online friend (whom I'm not even sure I can still consider a "friend" anymore ) has been pretty hard on me. I almost don't want to return to dA & other sites because of it. Perhaps I'm scared I'll end up in another online fight. That or I'm not eager to read the message I got from him / her way back on Valentine's Day… which could either induce more rage or a guilt trip. Cyber Defender (or whatever the hell they call themselves now) still has yet to be called partly due to this… if not mostly.
If I don't return before my birthday, don't think I'm being rude if I don't thank anyone right away (that even goes for the buttf*cker who hurt my feelings on a very profound level; if she / he can't accept the fact I believe that all forms of matter are sentient & are capable of a soul as well as deserve gentle love dignity, & respect unless they disrespect you in a pretty obvious way… then I guess we're just not meant to be friends; he / she apparently doesn't care enough about me to care about my Stella Shortman doll or anyone else in my vast toy collection; I know she's not THE Stella Shortman from the series, let alone her voice actress or an actual human, but to me if it's composed of atoms, it's a person; to me the word "person" does NOT translate exclusively to "The hairless ape that thinks it's so God d@mn special because it can walk upright & must wear clothing in public".
That fight has really put me in quite a creative slump, but I think I'm somehow attempting to crawl out. Perhaps the "real in a different way thing" could be just a period… after all artist's DO have periods… still, a work of fiction may be hardly much more than a story, but it can still have a butterfly effect on the here and now. After all, when Jaws first came out, the beach was a very lonely place; & I've heard that Disney / Pixar's Ratatouille was such a huge hit in France that many French celebrities (& possibly Le average Joe) adopted pet rats because they loved the film so much. And lest we forget when Hey Arnold! Fans had bombarded Craig Bartlett with "Where are Arnold's parents?!" before there was any episodes that they appeared clearly in… eventually (unless they were designed prior to that) He and the other artists designed them to satisfy the curious fans. This is pretty much what "real in a different way" means: even a work of fiction can & will have a butterfly effect on reality as we know it. & plush dolls as well as plastic figures may not be what they were made to look like, but a plush doll & a plastic figure still exists; don't ignore the plush elephant in the room (especially the one named William
… but seriously, I do have a plush elephant named William; he's a Lion King Diamond Edition plush from the Disney Store… & well, he didn't exactly have a name, it just said "elephant" on the tag, so I felt it was appropriate to name him William.
It's hard to tell when I may return, but when I do it's bound to be obvious & I'll have a lot of catching up to do. For those who care, my Miles & Stella dolls are doing quite well, their little girl Issie is learning to crawl (through the miracle of puppetry of course)… I swear that every time I hold that little plush body in my arms that it feels as if all is right with the world… even though this world is far from it.
Well until I come back thank you in advance for any birthday wishes.
Okay, I must of been too harsh when I used the term "buttf*cker", I guess I was still just very hurt & angry over that fight. I know life goes on, but even my biological clock hasn't been the same since. I apologize for using such a harsh term.
I guess when someone's hurt & angry enough, they won't care about what's right or wrong... at least that's how it is with me. something's telling me it shouldn't be though.
Here are the reviews that have been taken care of for
An Ultimate Hey Arnold! Essay
Love As True As Time
TJM: Facts and Opinions
A Helga on the Couch Essay
The Best Giddup Evarr
A Missing Moment, Ch. 1
Don't Know What They're Missing
I Need A Mop
Here's what's left:
Lessons to Be Learned
Errrrr Awkward (3 chapters)
It Happens Everytime
A Missing Moment, Ch. 2
The Drivein Seriously Needs AC (5 chapters)
= Taken care of
= Yet to be taken care of
THESE REVIEWS WERE REQUESTED POLITELY!